Dear Crush.

I'm tired of waking up in tears
'Cause I can't put to bed these phobias and fears
I'm new to this grief I can't explain
But I'm no stranger to the heartache and the pain

The fire I began is burning me alive
But I know better than to leave and let it die

I'm a silhouette asking every now and then
"Is it over yet? Will I ever feel again?"
I'm a silhouette chasing rainbows on my own
But the more I try to move on, the more I feel alone
So I watch the summer stars to lead me home

I'm sick of the past I can't erase
A jumble of footprints and hasty steps I can't retrace
The mountain of things I still regret
Is a vile reminder that I would rather just forget (no matter where I go)

The fire I began is burning me alive
But I know better than to leave and let it die

I'm a silhouette asking every now and then (now and then)
"Is it over yet? Will I ever smile again?"
I'm a silhouette chasing rainbows on my own
But the more I try to move on, the more I feel alone
So I watch the summer stars to lead me home

'Cause I walk alone
No matter where I go
'Cause I walk alone
No matter where I go
'Cause I walk alone
No matter where I go

I'm a silhouette asking every now and then (now and then)
"Is it over yet? Will I ever love again?"
I'm a silhouette chasing rainbows on my own
But the more I try to move on, the more I feel alone
So I watch the summer stars to lead me home

I watch the summer stars to lead me home.

..

pernah tak.
kau jatuh cinta pada orang yang punya semuanya yang kau cari.
kalau orang lain tanya "weh, apa ciri laki idaman hang?"
jawapan semua elok jek ada kat dia. takdak kurang, takdak lebih.

pernah tak.
ada satu lelaki. yang takdak pertalian darah langsung dengan kau
tapi satu2nya yang selalu muncul dalam doa kau.
macam geli. tapi realiti.

pernah tak.
ada satu tahap yang kau rasa macam give up nak mampus.
tak nanpak walau sebesar zarah pun harapan masa depan yang kau impikan.

pernah tak.
kau doa sungguh-sunggu pada Tuhan. supaya hati kau yang macam tisu tu.
lupakan orang yang kau rasa kau tak mampu nak lupa.

taknak cakap pasal kau dah.
im at the end of our story. cerita yang aku reka sendiri.

future-man-to-be

my mom keep asking me
"do you have any boyfriend?"
"are there someone you always look before?"

and i said.
"yes. i have someone that i like. really like."

my mom insist to look the picture of him.
she asked.
"where do he lives?"

i spout the answer that i know she doesn't like to hear it out from me. but it just the truth.

even my mom know, the type of man that i always looking for.
but mom, he never really likes me.

and yeah. the truth hurts.

tanpa ku sedari.

kau hadir membawa seribu hikmah
mewarna senyuman yang kian pudar
mengenal erti sebuah persahabatan
menerima baik buruk seorang teman

kau hadir membawa seribu hikmah
menyeri hidupku yang kian pudar
menawar segala rasa kepahitan
memahami hati seorang teman

pengubat luka rindu dan kasih sayang
memberi semangat dan harapan

tanpa ku sedari kau tertinggal di hati
tiada ku menduga rasa ini kan hadir
maafkanlah aku
bukannya niat ku ntuk mencintaimu
semua ini tiba-tiba

berikanlah ku peluang
untuk jadi yang terbaik untukmu
takkan aku kecundang
selagi kau bukan milikku

biar, biar, biar aku menunggu
sampai habis nanti semua hayatku

biar, biar, biar aku menunggu 
cinta tulus ikhlas dari hatimu



http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZrOUsoh7TQY

#p

nanti. lau kau kahwin sebelum aku.
mohon jangan jemput aku.

#partner

how i wish i never have been fall in love with you at the first place.
i think that just a temporary feeling, that i always felt with some other guy.
but everyday it seems getting deeper.
and i am fall love with you everyday.
the cruel words you have been said before,
your acting that wound my fragile heart,
doesn't change the feeling at all.
i guess i can move on when you are far away.
but i forget.
you always have a special place inside my heart.
i never fall in love this hard,
i never fall in love this deep,
i never fall in love much longer than this.
there's no much time left before we are apart.
how i really wish i can be with u for all the time.
how i wish you could look at me just for a second.
i'm sorry.
i am sorry for falling in love with you.

.

Gua kena cool down.

Twitter sudah tidak selamat.
Facebook lagi lah.
Kalau tak kat sini, elok sahaja aku bertumblr.

Mohon bertenang.